tomorrow

Tomorrow I'm waiting for you
Leaving today with silently
Faces the light shining
Fearless to see tomorrow

Cause tonight will turns to light
And this love will grows into my blood
More and more I don't want to waste this feeling

I love you without sound
I love to feel the wounds to loving you
"But the distance between us..
make me cold again..."
yes It's true

Wishing for tomorrow you will close with me
Please break that wall honey...
cause nothing can't stopping me to loving you
I beg For you dear

Tomorrow...
And Tomorrow I believe can embrace you deeply...
Feel your warm touch...
Feel your kiss...

Tomorrow...
Cause Tomorrow we will stay close...
No one can't break us apart..
And I don't fear to defying God...

Cause Tomorrow...
Tomorrow...

Love you

and I can feel the air in my lung...
cause you make me breath again..
bring the light into my night...
I know you are the one...

you came when my heart frozen...
make it melted away...
and I know you are the one...
when you try to make it gone...

but the distance between us..
make me cold again...
this tears pouring me...
can you be mine???

cause I cannot waste this feeling...
grows and grows without fear..
would you take my hand and bring me to your life?
just stay with me cause I don't want to loosing you...

nothing but an angle

she cry at the corner
alone on a doubt
she finally found that live was useless
but just imaginary

walk at the crowded but what she looking for is nothing
tell me what her feeling
tell me it is nothing

looking to the mirror
but there is no reflection
running under the starlight
but still can't find the shadow

yes she is...
she looking for nothing
in this world
she looking for the thing that have lost

and I wake up from my sleep
tell you what I feel
tell you it isn't nothing
tell you its an angel
tell you she is an angel

angel of my heart

For my beloved grandmom

and she told me everything...
i thought it was useless
and she accompany me in every weekend...
i felt it was bored
and she embrace me when i feel alone...
she hold me when i fallen...

I miss her beauty smile...
I miss her softness touch...
I miss her warm embrace...
I miss her voice...

God If I can make a deal with You...
Just want sweet deal..
"I want to see her... I want to make some conversation with her...
I want to listen every word she says... I want to hug her..."
God...

I'm crossing the borderline
Without a sound
A wilderness
No one could ever know
The sadness
How it brings me down

He Loves Me

Wednesday at the afternoon...
he standing there..

someone that I'm waiting for..
someone that In my dream...

and I cannot write anymore...
cause the words disappear...

Just "I Love You" that I Find From hIm...

Love Is...

Seseorang bertanya...
"apa arti cinta itu?"

Love Is...
It's the happiness you feel
When everything's gone wrong...
It's the way you sit there
And think of crazy love songs...

It's the sadness in your heart
When you know their not there...
It's the safeness you have
When you are feeling scared...

It's the hope you have
When everything's gone...
It's the dreams you hold
When your alone...

It's having someone to be with
Someone you can't be without
It's wanting to hold them every second
That's what its all about...


"Love is like quicksilver in the hand. Leave the fingers open and it stays. Clutch it, and it darts away." - Dorothy Parker

"Love is friendship set on fire." - unknown

"Love is the master key that opens the gates of happiness." - Oliver Wendell Holmes

"Love is like war: Easy to begin but hard to end." - Anonymous

"Love is an act of endless forgiveness, a tender look which becomes a habit." - Peter Ustinov

"Love is like a violin. The music may stop now and then, but the strings remain forever." - unknown



Complicated juga ya...

cinta...
ketika air mata jatuh...
ia akan membelainya selembut permen kapas...
ketika marah menyelimuti...
ia akan merubah selimut itu menjadi rasa rindu...
ketika sedih merobek hati...
ia akan menyulamnya kembali tanpa rasa lelah...
ketika rindu menggetarkan jiwa...
ia akan menyentuhnya hingga dapat berdiri kokoh...
ketika ia pergi...
ia akan menyipannya dalam kenangan yang hanyut tertelan waktu..
cinta...
akankah seperti itu...

someone come at the darkest night...
touch my empty heart...
someone come at the beautiful dawn...
shining brightly replace the morning star...
someone whisper the softness word..
just like the warm breeze in the winter..
he comes make a new hope..
someone touch my empty heart...
but why he can open the lock door in my heart???
From 'My Room'
-someone-

Fall For You

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Oohhh...

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
'Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

dia..

hE said...
"I Love You"
but what I FeeL Is emPty...
nOthIng Heart beating...
but...
"wHat ShoULd I FeeL?"

I'm Just an aiedail...

ga Ada InspIrasI bwAt nULIs....

Hari pertama PUASA...
Hari pertama KULIAH...
hmhmhm...
senangnya Jadi MABA...

dI osPek Ma SenIor,, TapI daPeT kEcEngan,,

JadI KanGen mAsa" SMA...
-KanGen beLAJar MateMatIka Ma Pa Ash,,
Hehe..
-KanGen Ma Pa SurahMan...
-KanGen Ma WaLI KeLAs...
-KanGen Ma Anak"kELas,,sItUasI keLas...
hmhm...

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule


Hidup ini cuman bentar...
Ga percaya???
"sIapa yang ngerasa dari sd nyampe skarang lamaa banged??? ngacung!!"

planing Kan Lah hIdup Anda dari sekarang untuk empat atau LIma tahun kedepan....

KARENA ITU SEBENTAR!!!!!


Hmhmhm NgaPaIn Ya...
Ga ada InsPIrasI...

Curhat aJa Ya...
haha....

PerTama...
"Kenapa Blog InI warnanya Hitam...???"
Karena...
Sebuah posting blog berjudul 'Black Google akan menghemat energi hingga 750 megawatt per tahun' mengInspirasi Qw bwat bikin tampilan warna Hitam...
Coba kita mulai hal kecil For Safe The World...
Bukan cuman para super heroes aja -Spiderman, Batman, Smallvile, Heroes,etc.
but we Can To be a hero...
do a small thIng for The bIg ThIng..
It's a step for changing,

clIck www.blackle.com For save the world...

kedua....
"kenapa tuLisannya Ungu Pink..."???
sImple...
karena aQ suka Warna ungu...

Ungu : Memberikan energi rasa kasih, inspirasi, imajinasi dan empati.
Selain punya daya penenang, ungu adalah salah satu warna yang dahsyat, berhubungan dengan perspektif spiritual dan intuisi kita.

sifat abstrak ungu mencerminkan hidup aQ yang ga Jelas (Masih nyUsahIn Ortu..Blum Jadi Orang)

bwat warna pink bIar matchIng aJa...

Pink :Selalu mencoba yang terbaik bagi dirinya, ringan tangan, peduli dengan orang lain, namun tak mudah merasa puas. Orang yang terhahir dengan nuansa pink ini cenderung memiliki pribadi negatif dan selalu berangan-angan memiliki cinta romantis seperti dalam dongeng.

Ketiga...
"Kenapa Isinya dArk, so sad, regret...???"

Alasannya...
Karena aQ bukan Orang yang RomantIs...
bukan karena aku pengikut setan or whatever lah...
tapI...
Itu semua aQ dapet darI hatI aJa..
Bukan juga pengalaman pribadi...(bukan maw ngeles tapi emang Bukan)

gImana ya...

aku nulis ngikutin tangan ma hati...
darI hal kecIL aQ anGkat Jd sOmethIng bIg..

TerInspIrasI oLeh Kahlil Gibran dan Evanescence...

JadiLah SepertI InI...

Keempat...
"Why The tItle Is 'My Room'???"
Because My room Is the pLace where I can feel pleasant and comfort..(nULIsnnya Bener ga c?)

iia gItu Dech...
TetapLah LestarIkan Budaya ChubIdam...
haha...

ChubIdam..."Gw Banged gtu Loh!!"

ada Fenomena MenarIk tadI maLem...
1. Waktu Teraweh.. mesJId Lumayan Kosong, Saf Barisan juga bolong"(Corengcang).
seolah-olah orang" pada ga siap Buwat NgehadepIn Bulan Suci Ramadhan...
2. Jam setengah sembilan malem, Langit tuwh Ga gelap tapi warnanya ungu...ada Jingganya...Pertanda apa ya...

Hmm... Besok aQ PosTIngIn KahLIL gIbran ah...

oiia knapa Evanescen bIsa Jd InsPIrasI aQ...
Coba LIad Lirik-lirik ini..

"Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming
Cannot cease for the fear of silent nights
Oh, how I long for the deep sleep dreaming
The goddess of imaginary light"

"frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead"

"Fallen angels at my feet
Whispered voices at my ear
Death before my eyes
Lying next to me, I fear
She beckons me, shall I give in?
Upon my end, shall I begin?
Forsaking all I've fallen for, I rise to meet the end"

Liat...PuItIs ga...
hoho...

PostIng duLu aH
Mau NyarI brIta BwAt dI pOsTIng...
tha tha..

For aLL Who Has Been FeLt In Love

Love Is LIke bUtterFLy
The More It Chased, the more It runs
But If u Let It go, It will come when you don't expect...

Love cAn Make You HapPy
bUt It oFten maKe You saD,
But a new Love Is wOrth If It were gIven
to soMeOne wHo apprecIate It
So, dOn't be rush. and ChoosE The BesT

Dont Ever Say "I Love You"
If yoU dOn't cAre
Don't ever taLk abOut FeeLIng
If There Is nOne

Don't ever tOuch sOmeOne LIfe
If It wILL breAk hIs/her heart
Don't ever look at his/her eyes
If aLL yOu have dOne are LIes...

The cruELesT thIng thAt sOmeOne dOes tO sOmeOne eLse
Is To Let he/sHe FaLL In Love
mEanwHILe You DonT meAn to cAtch It

LovE Is nOt "Its YouR FaULt" ,bUt "ForgIve mE"
LovE Is nOt "WhEre are You?" ,bUt "I'm Here"
LoVe Is nOt "How cAn yOu dO tHAt?" ,bUt "Im UnderStanD"
LovE Is nOt "You ShOuLd bE LIke ThIs" ,bUt "I LovE YoU The WaY YoU ArE

The rIght CompabILIty Is Not MeasUred
by How Long You Have Been TogEther
or How oFten yOu aRe BeIng TogEther
But WhEn yOu aRe TogEther
You aLwaYs FILL and Share
To Make LIFe More wOrthFuL

The SadNess And LongIng
aRe OnLy FeLt as Long as You want To
And as Deep ass yOu aLLow
The Hard thIng Is nOt HOw To Face
The SadnEss And The LongIng
bUt How tO Learn FrOm Them

The WaY oF FaLLIng In LovE:
FaLL bUt dOn't Be StaggEred
SharE and Don't bE uNFaIr
UnderStand and trY noT To sTrIve moRe
sAd bUt dOn't ever Keep The SadnEss

Yes, It's Hurt to see
The one that wE Love Is Happy wIth SomeOne eLSe
But It's Hurt More
IF the One That You Love Is nOt HappY wIth You

The Most PathetIc In LIfe Is FIndIng SomEOne
anD FaLL In Love,
anD onLy FInd hIm/her but she/he Is not For You
and you haVe sPend So Much tIme To The One
That Can Not aPPrEcIate It

IF hE/sHe Not wOrth It nOw
Then he/she Is Never WorTh It For AnoTher yEar
oR eVen aNother 10 YeArs mOre Let hIm/her Go...

God KnoWs WhIch Is The BesT,
And wILL gIve The gRIeVe tO tEst

SometImes God hURts Our HeaRt
So wE cAn See God wIsdOm In That

If We Lose Love, so There Is a ReasOn behInd That
sOmetIme The ReasOn Is Hard To be UndersTood
BuT wE sHouLd KeeP To BeLIeve
Then When gOd Takes SomeThIng,
He Is reAdy For The BettEr One

Ehy waIt???
It's beCauSe aLthOugh wE wAnt To maKe dEcIsIon,
We wAnt It In Hurry,
We Don't wanT It RecklessLy
becAUse aLthOugh We Want tO FInd sOmeOne we Love Soon
We Don't wAnt tO Lose OurseLves In Process FIndIng It

FInaLly, Its Better wAItIng sOmeOne tHat wE wAnt
Than ChOose AnyOne There
It's Better waItIng sOmeOnE ThaT wE Love
Than SatIsFY oUrsELves tO AnYone There

It's Better waItIng For The rIght PersOn,
BeCauSe thIs LIfe Is too sHort
to be Passed wIth the WrOng ChOIce BeCaUse wAItIng has a HonorabLe and MisterIOus aIm

The MosT wonderFuL thIngs in LIfe Need More tIme
And Our waItIng wILL nOt WorthLess
aLthoUgh WaItIng Needs More ThIng,
FaIth, CouRage, and hOpe

WaItIng PrOmIsIS One ThIng
WhIch Can Not Be ImAgIned By anyOne
At The End,,God In aLL The wIsdOm
asks uS To wAIt BeCausE of ImPOrtant PersOn

DoIng WhaT You LIke Is FreeDom
LIkIng What You dO Is HappYness


akhIrnya.....
PenuLIs nya aQ ga Tau
aQ ngUtIp darI seLebaran
so...

HoPe Its UseFuL

Fear

I don't want to sleep anymore...
If I will loosing you...
I don't want to dream anymore...
If I can't see you again...

aQ LULUS UN!!!

Aku Lu"z UN!!!
teRnyaTa...
First I'm so gratefull to Allah SWT...
Thanks For all the beautifull things that you give to me....
For your blessed in everything I do...

bwT smWa kLuarGa Qw...
"wIth0uT y0ur m0tIvatE I d0 n0thIng"

bwT Pa Ash gUru matEmatIka yG suPer bAIk sAbaR...
"Jez ga tAw hRuz aPa kLo bkAn bApA yG Jd gUrU matEmatIka d b5"

bwT anAk"b5...
y0uR aLL tHe bEsT!

bwT dR Jez snDrI...
"I LovE y0u"

bwt sEvEnsAwELas
"y0u aRe my s0uLmatE"

JeZz Lu"Z UN!!!
I'm gRadUatEd

for my dear friends

Apalah persahabatanku denganmu?

kau bagai makanan jiwaku yang penuh kehampaan.

Bagai pohon rindang di tengah teriknya hari,
kau teduhkan panasku dengan kokoh berdiri di dekatku...
membantuku terjauh dari teriknya matahari...

Bagai nikmatnya secangkir coklat panas,
kau hangatkan hari-hari ku yang dingin,
dan kau tinggalkan pula manis di hariku...

Ketika aku tersesat dalam malamku,
kaulah yang menjadi bintang di malamku,
kau selalu di sana dan menuntunku pulang...

kau bagai obat untuk sayap-sayap patahku,
yang terluka oleh tajamnya panah cinta itu..
kau berikan perih itu di atas lukaku,
dan kau sembuhkan aku dengan perih yang kau beri itu..

dalam rangkulanmu,
tiada kata kau ucapkan..
tangisku kau rasakan
kau beri aku kekuatan,
dan kau meninggalkan nyaman bagiku..

tanpa kemunafikan atas pemikiran,
tanpa topeng atas seniman duniawi,
tanpa pamrih atas segala pengorbanan...
tulus kau berikan semua itu padaku...

sahabatku..
kau tidak cukup sebagai pembunuh jam kehidupanku,
tapi kau ada untuk menghidupkan jam kehidupanku...

kau bukan alatku mengisi keisengan saat hidupku,
tapi kau orng yang mengisi kelemahanku di dunia...

biarlah canda tawa ini selalu pada kita,
biarpun selalu ada duka antara kita...

apalah persahabatanku denganmu?
kau tidak kurang dari segalanya bagiku....

CaPrOeXx

FrOm mY wEaknEss HeaRt,,
I cOnFess For aLL thE thIngs I've Done...
For aLL The Sweetess sIn...FaLLIng DoWn FrOm The pUrpLe sKy...
For aLL tHe daMn ThIngs wIch Make mE FaLLen ThrOugh In eVery sIngLe tIme...

CrawLIng to The desert...
cUt InTo ManY LIttLe pIeCes...
"ShE cRIes BehInd The mIrOr"

And sHe ScReamIng...
ShE sCrEamIng...
sHe cRIes so LaUd

bUt nO bOdy Hear...
nO bOdy CarEs oF hEr TormEnts
cAusE shE JusT tHe ReFLecTIon
"sHe LivE bEhInd The mIrOr"

FrOm My RoOm
-sWeet aFternOon-
"mEanIngLess"

gIve mE ThAt beAutIFuLL smILe...
cAuSE I FeeL wArm..
ThaT smILe aLwAys mAkes mE FeeL bEtter ThAn BeForE...
LikE tHe BrEeZe oF sPrIng...
bRIng aLL The HonEsty In eVery mOrnIng...
dRoWIng YouR cOnFessIon HeArt...
I knOw ThAt You Are BrOken...
beHInd YouR bEAutIFuLL smILE,, TheRe Is The dEePest wOunds...
hIdIng cArEsLy...
bUt yOur eYes say nO....

FrOm My RoOm
-sWeet aFternOon-

"hIm"

I'm hEaLIng ThIs wOunds wIth smILe
I'm mAkIng wOund OnCe aGaIn wItH tHAt smILe
I pOuR tHe sALt Into That OpEn WoUnd
dO I cRy tO HoLd wHaT It FeeLs?
FoRget...I ForGottEn
sIncE ThRee yEaRs aFtEr The CoFFIn had cLOse
aFtEr sHe LeFt The Red RoSe on The CoFFIn
And nO mOre tEars BehInd TheIr HaZeL eYes anYmOre

AnD I wILL rUn IntO The sPrIng
FIndIng The AnsWer oF eVerY QuesTIon I hAve
That's wILL be The EndIng oF aLL mY sWeeT JoUrnEy
we wILL mEeT aGaIn
LIve HappILy eVeraFter In ThIs sILenCe bLIss

thEre Is nO wOunds AnymoRe
wE dOn't nEEd tO hIde whEn BeAutIFuLL dAwn cOmes
wE wILL FaCe ThIs wOrLd
FeEL The sUmmEr bReZze...
FeEL The Sun
wItH tHe ImmOrtaLIty

FrOzEn InsIde ThIs TeArs...
cAnnOt sCrEam anYmOre...
Lost InsIde The ReaLm oF daRknEss...
"But I'm nOt daRk anGLe"
sTrAyIng In mY wAy hOme...
nO LoLLypop For mE anYmOre...
tOrMent bY The dAwn...
I'm hIdIng bEhInd The mIror...
ForGet tO bReaTh...tO LIve...
ForGet How sWeet The CanDy...
I Cant HeaR the BeLLs rIngIng In mY sChooL...
bUt I'm sAve!!!!
sAvE FrOm eVerY LIes...
sLeepIng For aLong tIme..
bUt I Can FeeL you There...
"dO you mIss mE?"
How Can you mIss Me IF u Let me dIe?
"am I reaLy dIe?"
Cannot LIve cannot dIE...
I'm FaLLIng ThRough The DarknEss
TrapPed InsIde yOur HeArt....
and I cAnnOt BrEAthe...
asPhyxIatE!!!
dRownIng bEhInd your BrOwn eYes
There Is nO gLowIng sTars anymOrE
you TaKe mY hEart... drInkIng aLL mY bLood
For mY wEaknEss HeaRt...
I wILL be aLIve...
cAuSe TherE Is sWeeT rEvEnge For you mY LOve...
"sHe wILL bE bReaKIng The mIrrOr"
rUnnIng To The rEaL wOrLd
I'LL kIss yOu to Take Your sOuL....
I wILL bE bReakIng The mIrOr

StOrY oF tHe mOnThh.....

1. The SwEeTes 'aIedaIL' In hIs 'eYes'

I'm FaLLIng In Love wItH a thOusAnd gLowIng StaRs In thE skY...
twIngkLe In eveRy bLaCkest nIght...

I'm FaLLIng In Love wItH a thOusAnd gLowIng StaRs In thE skY...
and I don't KnoW wHAt to dO...

And He sIt TheRe bEhInd my ChaIr...
drOwIng The pInk on hIs heArt...
The wArm oF bReeZe bLowIng Up mY hAIr...
as He SmILe on me..

wALkIng aLone... I'm LooKIng For sILence...
And He toUcH mY heAnd,, bReaKIng aLL tHe CoFFusIng ThIng...
anD aLL beComE eaSIer...
cAuSE he SmILE on me...

goD... dOes hE LovE mE to...?
cAuSE I FeeL soMethIng dIFFerEnt,,
In eVerY a sIngLe minUTes he wAtCh mE...


2. a CrAzY 10, 11. 12th Day...

The 3 sWeetzz CraZy daY...we ShOuLd Pass The eXam...
anD I'm sO tIred To sTudy In The ScHooL...

ArrrGgggghhhhhhhh
IntInyAmaH nya Ieu Teh PRA UAN...
Bete BAnged....

3. a CrAzY weeK (24-29th)

nOw I haVe eXam...
And tOmOrrow Is my Last Exam...
God...
bUt There sTILL nOthIng....

seLAng sEminggU aQ HarUz uTz Coba...
nYebeLIn Banged sEh....


4. CreAtIve TeaCher...

mY maTh TeaCher mAke tHe (bAhasA InGgRIs nYa SpAndUk ApeU?)
PokonYa Ya.... GurUku yang saTu InI cReatIve BanGed...
dYa bQn SpanDuk...GambArnyA nAruto...
CerItanYa SpaNdUk ItU tEh BuAt nYemangatIn UAN....

He Is a GooD mOtIvAtoR....

5. pRobLem In My cLAss....

The sTorY begIn wHen My FrIends bROke Up wIth hIs bOy FrIend...And hIs bOy FrIenD FaLLIng In LovE wItH mY anOtHer FrIend......

Its So ComPLIcAteD...

cAuSE TheY aLL mY bEst FrIend....

6. ThE PoEm For Her

She CrIes In eVerY nIgHt...
She dRoWnIng In Her PaIn...
ThEre Is nOthIng She CoULd dO....
cAuSe sHe LIvIng The LIfe

ShE mAke hIm FaLLIng IntO JeALousY...
cAuSe nevEr Love hIm...
tHe onLy onE sHe Love..Is The pRIncE wHo KnoK aNOtHEr Heart...
And sHe FaLL cAuSe ThE wIngS Is BrOken...

ToRmEnTIng oF eVerY smILe...
sHe pRetenD everYthIng Is aLrIghT...

TheRe Is nO LIghT In Her LIfe...
cAuSE sHe bLInD FrOm ThE tRuTh....

7. aBoUt Me

I'm sTandIng On The RooFtOp wAtChIng The Sun rISes
cAuSE I stILL FeeL sOmeThIng ThAt ShOuLdn't
gOd....
Is It a gIve or a CursE...?
I nEvEr KnOw...

Only the WordS

I wake up at 3.15am
but...no glowing star
I walk inside the emptiness
and nothing i can find
Feeling different of someone i never know,,,
Feeling wrong to something i never understand,,,

I walk behind the heaven,,
Trying to be free from this spell,,
Nothing i can do know...
Just waiting for you to save me...

In this room i sleep
Freezing when the sun rises
Like the sleeping beauty,,
but wasn't me.....

Blind...from every bliss...
I'm not alive...but I'm not dying...
I'm trapped from nothing....
see everything people can't see...

I'm suffer of something I feel...