silent pray

and when the star falls down from the sky..
I wish for my silent pray..
For the sweetest candy cloud..
For desire in every temptation..
to reach all my dreams and find my self..
stay with me...
feel my frail heart whispering your name..
lullaby calls nightmare and who's coming to watch me broken ??
nobody knows what she feels..
and when the star falls down from the sky..
I wish you were here..

Far

I'm chasing the brightest star in the night sky...
Fall and Down I'm running to touch you..
You are cold,
And you're far away from me..
But all I want is you..

tell me..

am I falling again ??
or its just a flash of light blinding my eyes...
am I lost ??
I just can't find the way to go...
tell me..
tell me which way to go...
I hear voices screaming.
Tearing me down into painful words.
I'm trying to deaf and blind.
But the lies never wrong...
I'm dying...
Here I am..
I'm lost in silence..
I'm still walk away leaving it all behind..
But it's just the broken stairs,
tell me..
tell me this is my way home??

My Room

My Room..
Place where I can be who I am and I cannot be..
Place where I find silence and pleasant..
Not today..
Not this time..
But my world ruin me silently..
And I'm lost beyond the dark..
Is it a dream ??
You call to me and I can hear nothing.
This wounds spreading, killing me, burry me alive..
What have you done??
My Room..
Place where I can be everything..
But it kills reality..
Tell me who I am..
Tell me that you want me too..
And you now that I can't let my self free..
And you now that I can't pretend that this love is unreal..
My Room..
Place where I can sleep tightly..
The only way into the utopia..
See who I am...
Nothing..
Nothing..
Nothing but just a lie..
Can't I lie to you, can I ???
My Room..
Place where I can be who I am and I cannot be..
Place where I find silence and pleasant..
The only one that never leave me..
Let me never ever wake again then we can be together..
But not today..
Not today...

nothing but too much lie

would you tell me what it feels to be alone..
could you tell me how empty heart screaming laudly..
I stay awake..
To watch you sleep..
To watch you breath..
To watch you dying..

Sirius

There is no star tonight..
The rain still falling embracing the loneliest feeling to keep it cold..
If I don't let it flow, then I crash and break into pieces..
Cause when it rain..
I can't see you shining brightly in the night sky..
I'm just longing for you tonight..
Watching you sleep and hear you breathing.
Laying beside you and listening to your voice.
Hold the black hole behind your window.
But I can't see you my sirius.
The summer has gone and I'm still waiting for you at the dawn..
Your smile,
Your kiss,
Makes me weak and blind.
This room is empty and I'm alone now.
I don't need the rain,
Even I love to walk away under the rain, but not without you..
I just need you..
I need you now..
Please don't go away..

Like love (30, August 2010)

Paint the colorless landscape.
Like a twilight sings lullaby.
And I will show you what's love brings to tame us..
Like love in the love like you and I..

From the moon to the sound of footsteps.
I just don't want to be hurt anymore.
Come and get close with me like love without a sound.
Take my hand then give me the love like..

I've been loosing the pieces of my soul.
And I've been suffering without the love like poison in the wine.
But I love to feel this way more than I do...

My life is my fairytale

My life is my fairytale. Something that hard to understand why it is and what it should be..
In every story's writes and tale is tells, My world grows alive..
Imagination in every move I see..
Not such withered flowers in funeral..
But the beautiful dreams that everyone wants become real..
Where the stars falling from the sky and all your wishes come true..
There is no pain..
No tears fall down from hazel eyes..
No wounds that break your heart apart...
But it's just a dream..
Just an illusion..
That fades into breaking dawn..
Help me to breathing...
This wonderful life is only come behind the shadow..
Under the light..
Under my pillow..

But My life is my fairytale. The tragic real life and a beautiful nightmare..
Doesn't it sound like a lullaby ??
Where you always could see the rainbow.
"Somewhere over the rainbow"
that's what he said..
What I want today is just to know that it's just a dream..
Then I wake up to see how beautiful landscape full of blooming flowers..
In my castle..
In my kingdom..
With the prince of my heart...
But that's only a dream..
And will never ever come true.
And about how the ending...
what I know is..
My life is my fairytale...

Valium

Goodnight to you, forgiving my endless torments,
I want you right here ease this pain.
Close your eyes, feel my frail heart screaming to you.

I beg redemption my valium.
Don’t keep on tempting me my valium.
My dry eyes could cry no more.
Give me back my reality out of my sleep.

Goodnight to you, buried alive by love.
This softly touch and tenderness embrace.
But I need to live without you.

My Dearest Aiedail

Dear the brightest star,
I don’t know who you are, even just your name.
Can’t you stay tonight for me?
For the love in my heart is only for you.
And the brightest star,
Would you be my lonely star?
Because I’m the lonely moon in the lonely night,
Would you keep my heart and not let me pale?

How can I leave the night when whisper falls from you?
And do I think of you when the sun comes at horizon.
A lullaby tells softly, but I won’t sleep,
Just to shine beside you in my lonely nights.

Gloomy Sunday [Suicide Song]

Sunday is gloomy
My hours are slumberless
Dearest the shadows
I live with are numberless
Little white flowers
Will never awaken you
Not where the black coach
Of sorrow has taken you
Angels have no thought
Of ever returning you
Would they be angry
If I thought of joining you
Gloomy Sunday

Sunday is gloomy
With shadows I spend it all
My heart and I have decided
To end it all
Soon there'll be flowers and prayers
That are said I know
But let them not weep
Let them know
That I'm glad to go
Death is no dream
For in death I'm caressing you
With the last breath of my soul
I'll be blessing you
Gloomy Sunday


Dreaming
I was only dreaming
I wake and I find you asleep
In the deep of my heart dear
Darling I hope
That my dream never haunted you
My heart is telling you
How much I wanted you
Gloomy Sunday
Gloomy Sunday

simply death

Those eyes close at the gloomy sun.
She had loose her feeling.
She is just lays while her eyes watching the dark.
Silently she lost in the stillness.
Her heart turns to cold, but what can I do ?
And the tenderness on her smiles, ignoring all the pain for everything she left before.

Wandering in the unknow world, when everything turn upside down.
Far from my room I’m alone and lost.
All I need is you to take me into the undying light.
Close to the flame of the love that burning brightly.
I close my eyes and I can't feel my heart.
I hear they breathe and weep far from me.
I can feel the warm touch of the forlorn heart.
And All I need is you to safe me from the pain that can’t be heal.

But the rain won’t stops falling.
And my heart needs to be awake and feels the summer.
Does her heart needs too, doesn’t it ?

beautiful death

dear my forlorn life...
how's your life today ? what a wonderful pain lives inside your heart.
she still crying behind the mirror.
I'm tormented by the wounds that never heal.
By the pain of your embrace,
This fragile love makes me afraid to feel you far from me..
I love you from the inside and it completely my soul...

Julie's Nightmare

tick tock...
the clock is 9 now.
and the fear touch softly, sending shiver down my spine.
the darkest feeling which dwells in my heart, going strong..
and the shadows behind my footsteps seem laughing to me..
oh my morning star, I don't want to sleep to embrace the nightmare...
not to adore you, but I'm longing for the peaceful feeling..
in the silent with you, I'm alive with your love..
I know it will come, but I never expected that one into my life..
dear my morning star..
I lost inside my visions....
Lost in the realm of darkness again !
The spell chaining my soul without you I won't be free.........

Falling

I think I’m falling away from where I belong.
This all is just the emptiness waiting deep down bellow for me.
The last song that I heard, was from you,
You said “it would be alright”
But no I’m not.

At the day you left me,
I’m falling into the gloom,
Where it’s turns into triple sixes,
There is nothing left here,
Just the pieces of our fragile memories,
And now I’m falling…

And promises just only words of your lies
Can’t you just sit and listen to my deepest wounds.
Close to the devil counting time,
I’m not feel better..

At the day you left me,
I’m falling into the gloom
Where it’s turn into triple sixes,
There is nothing left here,
Just the pieces of our fragile memories,
And no I fall…

And when I wake I wish is just a dream,

Innocent

Remembering to the time when the truth in silence,
I saw the kind of the world from the innocent eyes.
A sweet candy with the softly touch.
There is no reason to fear from the gloom.

Rainbow all over me, and the unanswered questions,
I love all the things around me.
Dream a fairy tales, like a princes in castle,
I love all the things around me.

Its taste like a sweet poison in a vein,
More I want, it kills me slowly.
And the desire cage the conscience
I take all what darkness gives.

Lies all over me and the greedy world,
Dreams a painful life, I see in mirror ball,
And how I long for the candy kind things,
I miss that innocent.
I hate all the things around me.

Lucky Thing

That is true if you want me to.
To be like what you want,
To throw me away whenever you want,
And the lust which dwells inside,
Grows like a hungry beast.
The dramatic scene begin,
At the time between live and death.

Swallow everything in this world and you will find something wonderful.
It can be the inferno in your heart or wonderful heaven.
Show me the truth, don’t hang me like you need me, but you don’t.
I need the truth cause all I see is you.

And when you go somewhere else,
Then you find something makes you died.
Is there a lucky thing for you ?
Or you regret cause you not…

Swallow everything in this world yet and you can’t find something wonderful.
It can be the inferno in your heart or wonderful heaven.
Show me the truth, don’t hang me like you need me, but you don’t.
I need the truth cause all I see is you.

And when the sorrow lives inside your heart,
I’ll be the rainbow coloring yours.
And when you need me, I’ll always there.
Like inferno and heaven always together.

another life

Different way different story,
Another soul different mind,
Let me think of what we have done.
This cruel world always leaves us alone.

Why not me, why is you.
Why not us, always we,
Do we die together, to get what we have before.

Through our live,
The holy ghost beneath the soul,
Take us back into the love that we long for

I dream the dream about us.
In somewhere of bliss,
Together we hold this,
But not real life, like this.

the last letter

Leaves fallen down and flower withered into dust.
A death letter falls from heaven to the hell where the beauty is easy to find.
With the lies beneath your eyes, I can’t see what I want to see.
It becomes difficult without that single word.

Reason,
The warm embrace from you I need to know.
Why we’ve falling down into the unknow way.
It keeps me away from the logical think of mine.
I need to know

The answer is just the whisper from the angel.
Bring the sad story for the unholy man.
I want to keep you near me, to say what your heart feels,
to take us back into consciousness feeling.

Love
The sweet whisper from you I need to know.
Why you keep asking me without that single word.
It keeps me away from the logical think of mine.
I need to know

Well I’m waiting for the angel brings the later for me.
And you know it’s true I have a feeling for you.
And I need to know……

Close To The Flame - HIM

The kiss sweetest
And touch so warm
The smile kindest
In this world so cold and strong

So close to the flame
Burning brightly
It won't fade away
And leave us lonely

The arms safest
And words so good
The faith deepest
In this world so cold and cruel

So close to the flame
Burning brightly
It won't fade away
And leave us lonely